Post Nmbr 100.

It's the 25th if January

Fuck

Rant.Rant.Rant.Bebel.Bebel.Bebel.

Hey.Hi.Hello.

"Bean"(kacang...) a while huh?

yah.

never thought I would be bebeling here again.

But to hell with it.

I couldn't think of any other place to rant about what I am about to rant about.

okayh. that sentence is wrong in a number of ways. but i don't really care.

any-whore~

lets get on with le yelling and cursing shall we?

*peace~

*ehem2..(clears throat..)

OH GOD!!! WHYY!!! WHYYY!!!

Why must I be a human being who thinks too much?

WHY!

This is causing me great mental stress....

why must my own mind continuously torment me with all these thoughts about things from the past!!

WHY MIND?

why must you be so cruel!

GRRRRRRRRRR....

Damn you woman!

You screwed me up!

Its because of you I think too much!

Because of you my mind is always in a state of!!.... errrr... near to blowing up? yah. something like that..

...

I think of you too much.... i miss you too much....

GRARGH!!!!

FFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!

WHY!
what have you done to meeee..

what did you do to make it so difficult to fuqin let go!

Its been almost a whole bloody year!

yet i still "get dust in my eyes" almost every night because YOU suddenly decide to show up in my head!

WHY!

.....

I know I'm stronger than this...

but..

bah...

this sucks..

who am i kidding...

anyone who has or might hear my story could obviously tell that I haven't moved on...

I lie to everyone. I lie to my self..

I suck.

I'm sick and tired of all this...

I thought time was supposed to be able to heal all wounds..

mine doesn't really seem to be getting any better....

huh...

ya know..

sometimes I just wish we never met...

yah..

sometimes I even wish that. I wish I never got enrolled in MRSM Terendak...

yah I might loose some important friends. but hey. If i never went there then we would never had been friends so it wouldn't really matter anymore right?....

because. If i were never there.. then we would have never met.

and if we had never met..

well..

I wouldn't have caused you any pain, and I wouldn't need to go through all this...

Bah. the way I'm typing this is as if you're ever gonna read it...

It's a waste of time i know. but hey. My blog. you don't like it, you leave.. sorry..

I don't hate my life..

I know god brought me here for a reason..

which I have yet to find..

I just kinda dislike some parts of how my life has been planned out so far.

and also loath the way I have made it become so far....

aaaaaaannnddd. A post by a fat bitch on FB just made be LOL. so now the bebeling mood is gone.

damn fatfuck. HAHA!

k. thats all.

SORRYokTHANXbye.....

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Dis.blog.ist.DEAD. =P

hah.

Selamat hari raya semua.from your not so friendly friend who is curently far far away in Johor Bahru.Pocoyo Lahabau. t(=.=t) *oh, what an inappropriate emoticon...